Breathing & ALIVE

I realise how much my life evolve in work. 'Restart' seems a normal routine to me. I cope and adapt yet one thing remained unchanged…not everyone is receptive towards my working ways.

I remember my first time when I’ve got confronted. I stood still and felt that the entire world is against me. As time passes by, I’m used to have people criticized the way how you do things. Being open to their commentary is a gesture of professionalism yet one should be able to differentiate between positive critics/acknowledgement or the intoxicated statements that implies ‘inferiority’.

A gist on my derivation based on the critics:

I am an idealist:

- I opt for only the BEST solution based on the communication goal and that’s it. Whichever options that stand in between, is a strong NO. They can be the contingency plans, yet strive real hard on the desired goals.

I am defensive:

- I do love to work in a team yet I highly placed objective result when it comes to implementation action and decision making. Is either you are in or out…hence I’m not that all-nice lady to people who don’t walk the talk. Stand strongly with the team and pull off a great campaign.

I manage expectation:

- Everyone loves to exceed a superior/client expectation, who doesn’t? Placing everyone expectation on the table is a MUST while leveraging on each teammate's strengths.

I am a DIRECT person:

- Everyone is aware how bold I can be. Still, I am a person who is full of surprises. I can make you laugh real hard…

All in all, it’s merely work and let’s put it that way.

Quoted

Keep the spirit up…High up as this is just the beginning.. A long bumpy road ahead..but an exciting one…

Unquoted

ONE STEP BACK

I made my move again and this time 2 steps at a time.

I've tender my resignation back in Telekom Malaysia Berhad and my last date was end of July 2010. Report to The Body Shop right after that.

It felt a bliss at first but when I got to my new job, I was overwhelmed by the new culture and environment. It's pretty amazing how an environment can takes a toll on someone when you don't have the passion in doing the job. For the first time in my life, I felt that ...I don't feel happy doing the things/work.

I don't see work is just work...I need to feel the significance of the job.

I love the feeling when I completed a job...

I love the feeling when my boss come up to me and said 'Job Well Done'~felt like a bliss~'

I love the feeling when all those late nights at office is accompany with your slumber colleagues...

*haizz*

And I tendered my resignation from The Body Shop in just 2 months serving them. The most sulkiest part is that I got to pay them RM 7k as they bought my 3 months period from TM. There went all my savings...

Deeply inside, I know it's a huge sum of money...yet I'm not able to drag myself for another 4 months . It takes a toll on me emotionally. I think it hard enough and I got to do this,,,

This would not be an easy path for me, I've got to cut all my expenses just to ensure I've enough money to survive...so if you see me around, you'll be paying for my yum cha!

There's only one way now: FORWARD.

Gotta forget all my past, it's a brand new chapter.

Sincerely;

Mei

Mei's in searching for...

LIFE:

I’ve lost someone in my family. Ama (Grandma) passed away on the 11 May 2010. I was lucky enough to meet her 2 days before she left us. I could still remember, she was so weak and slowly she couldn’t remember names by then.

Chea Chea gave me a call at 3.00 am and told me the news. I wish I was able to rush back to Melaka the morning itself, yet I made the decision to wrap up a job that was given to me. It was also the same day my flight to Beijing was scheduled. My heartiest thanks to my dear sista cos she has been wonderful person. She managed Ama’s funeral and handling all those family issues all at once.

Thank you for being understanding of my situation and supports all my decisions. I pray that she will be happy at the place she’s now…and I’m sure she’s smiling right now.

Ama, you’re always close to my heart…I’ll miss your toasted charcoal bun, I’ll miss those hands that used to brush my short hair…but most of all I’ll miss your big glimpse of smile whenever we took your pictures.

With so many thoughts in my mind, Beijing trip was a blissful breakaway and the time for me to plan what’s NEXT? While I was in China, I felt the different side of my usual life.

My housemates are awesome ladies. Thank you ladies for being there when I need you gals. Endless thanks to Jasmyin Petrinna Tay and Nadine Gan.

I’ve bought my very own LCD TV and this time around, I placed an extra budget to purchase an air-conditioned for my younger sista. She deserves it…

All in all, LIFE has been pretty subtle to me. Some people might think I’m extremely occupied yet during the weekends, I enjoy just sitting in front of TV and just chillexing. I’m calmer when ‘someone’ does the talking instead of me.

WORK:

I rant more about my work, do I?

Pretty good news in my career development here. On January itself, I’ve got an award ‘Outstanding yada yada yada’, I’ve took the $$$ but not the cert :-). Then I’ve got my ‘BONUS’ KACHING KACHING KACHING….but what I appreciate the most was the CALL from my GM in informing me on the GCEO’s Merit Award (an additional of 1.5 x monthly paid, KACHING). Credit to the management who actually acknowledged and recognized those that do the JOB! With that my designation suits me perfectly: GM a.k.a General Machaitellar.

Although I've received numerous recognitions, yet I feel suppress in my current platform. I enjoy doing my job, I really do. My superiors are great people, my Tuan-Tuan did splendid job in setting up…my colleagues, ‘boleh la’. I’ve taken the week off to recall what ‘MEI’ actually made of…so here it goes

I used to be someone who stands up for what I believed in, I used to know what and how to it in just few months, I used to have bosses that supports me and challenge me when needs to, I used to have competitive colleagues/environment (tho they are pretty awesome bitches and gossipers) and makes me to be at their par, and I used to have SOMETHING to improve on myself. It’s all about ‘getting there’.

So what I did is that, I hunt for new jobs la. Went for several interviews, pretty well, got shortlisted here and there, yet at the end of the day, is either I asked for TOO MUCH or their looking at someone FRESH that can be easily adapted to a new organization, in simpler words (ego yang kurang). Well, I’m not letting the ‘rejection issues’ bothering me. I’ve even consider to do what I did last year: Took one (1) week off and went back to cruising…hmm, I missed that. Although it was only a week, yet I’ve learnt a lot. A LOT.

All in all, I just wanna explore more opportunities out there, and who knows in years to come, I’ll be much readied to contribute to the organization.

This is Mei signing off.

Mei being BLISSFUL and CONTENDED

Life has been tremendously occupied.

To summarize:

WORK:

1. It’s all about work, work and work…
2. I threw my tantrum a lot as some things weren’t up to my expectations.
3. This time around, I uttered more ‘blunt words’ that I normally do.
4. There are quite a handful of events that needed to be coordinated at early stage, this time around I will just LISTEN and stop suggesting….I’m paid to listen.
5. Yeah! I’ve got a new colleague, too early to judge, but I strongly believe she can be molded by keeping up to my speed.
6. I dislike @hate undecided decision.
7. I dislike @hate agency who thinks I don’t know…: Doesn’t mean I’m only 24, I have no freaking idea what is creative all about.
8. My new manager has been tremendously a ‘GREAT MENTOR’ to me. He guide me quite well I must say, the only thing is that he just don’t listen to me and up to a point he will say this-

: ‘UP TO YOU LA MEI, YOU’RE THE BOSS!’

- Nonetheless, one of the managers that I fond to work with other than Mr. Hairil.
9. My superior on the hand, is a lady whom I perceived as strong and out-loud lady who never fails to stand up for her team and yea…salute on her passion in getting things done.


LIFE:
1. My TV got struck by lighting…and I’ve got it repaired…Thx to David!
- Good job bro…good job…
2. Housewarming got postponed, as all of us having other obligations to be met.
3. Took a day leave just to ensure I don’t throw tantrum at my bosses…phewh that’s a relief.
4. There’s always things in life which I careless about:
- Picking up the most ‘unattractive muffins’ in a bakery
- Stuck in traffic (Normally I’ll take the time for myself)
- Got lost in driving
- Go to work without make up
- Clubbing/pubbing/chilling (I’m getting old…and I don’t think I have the energy to keep up the same hype the very next working days)
5. I placed a very high demand in:
- Services
- Arrangement of my clothes in my wardrobe
- CLEAR Communication
- my family well-being
- my sista(s) achievement in life (hey, it has to start from the early stage)
- my superiors management style towards me
- spending some time with my housemates (either for a heavenly breakfast on Saturday morning or a movie night at least once a month)
6. I love to quote and unquote statements from those around me. I found them ‘quite charming’ in a way.
7. I have been travelling much more than I used to. I’ll enjoy it more should I’m in a vacation rather than work and of cos accompanied with my gals.
8. I still think SINGLE is SEXY.

9. I'm being far more demanding in meeting my own life expectations!

10. I still don't cook...yet :-)

Mei signing off!

I'M AROUND

Hey babes and hunks! I'm still around...

It's been quite a while since my presence in this blog.

Loads of stuffs happened.

I mean A LOT.

1. I've bought my all-time favourite WHITE myvi in April :-) with my own money of cos...did not use my parents money since I'm 17.

2. Transferred to a new department :-) something that I look forward everyday. EVENTS! Wohooo!

3. Shifted to USJ11 (opposite Taipan) with my babes! (Jasmyin, Nadine) and superb handsome Germany/Malaysian hunk (David: dey..which happened to be Nadine's little bro who is going to be the NEXT CLEO BACHELOR: hahahah).

4. Went back to Melaka after 2 months travelling due to events.

5. Serving great bosses and surrounded with loads of accessories boyfriends. Hmm, will update you on each one of them :-)

6. So far, yup life has been equally fair to me, have been travelling a lot around M'sia, my ex-manager has been tremendously supportive and work has never been so much of fun.

7. With adhoc datelines to be met, ridiculous request from bosses (quite fun laa), and stacks of REPORTS needed to be compiled has never been so much satisfying to me.

8. Last but not least, I've got selected to be in 1Malaysia TM Billboard nationwide. Wohooo! Nasib je...cos I'm the only Chinese.

Gotta dooze off now~

Flight back to KL is at 8.00am...gotta rush to office, settle all those coordination, meeting up with my bosses (just in case he needed me to complete it).

Mei signing off from Penang!

A BIG GLIMPSE OF SMILE

Head up, shoulders back and walk as if the WORLD belongs to you.

That’s how I feel.
‘Dey, I’m not in a relationship, I don’t need mushi-mushi thingy’

I’ve found a much clearer career path right now. I’m able to lift my head up again. There’s always a principle that I uphold: ‘No one should makes you feel inferior without your consent’.

True enough.

So here I am. There’s so much of stuff that needed to be done. Looking forward to place all my ideas in my new job platform. Can’t wait!

Yesterday I met with my bro(S), Hafizi and Noh. We chatted a lot and yup, they have been a TREMENDOUS BROS to me. A friend, a mentor, but most of all being such a great companion.

I’ve always enjoy chatting with them, changing ideas, criticizing each other opinion’s, paraphrase one’s statement…haizz, but one thing for sure, they always the one who PULL me up again. Hafizi and Noh are definitely credible people, yet they didn’t show it to the public, low profile kinda person: intact with knowledge: willingness to share: priceless

Cheers my friend.
Your advice is well noted. I need to be ‘BOLD’, never loose the touch yet keeping the ‘harmony’ among the new team that I will be working. Be different.

It’s really sweet of them as well to make me realize that I’m always the one who creates the ‘hype’ within the people that around me. Yeaaa, that’s my specialty, I’m able to ‘hoo-hoo haaa’ : in other words, I’m LOUD for a reason. Gotta think one step ahead of others.

Got the chance to meet up with Margaret and Kevin as well.

CONGRATES Margaret cos making thru as the finalists in ASTRO SHORT Film. Thumbs up.
I’m blessed to have friends that ‘pat at each other back’. Thanks for the LA stamp! Love it gal.
It has been 4 years since I’ve met both of from the previous exchange program. Margaret: Definitely the SAME STUBBORN, independent lady, yet she’s has tone down a bit….Yeaaaaaayyyyy!

Kevin on the other hand, being such a great friend, caring and of cos such a great joker la brader. He chosen a path that he never thought he will…now that’s something that can be proud of. Still, he’s the best bass guitarist!

My current job scope has been exciting lately. Getting more demanding from coping up with datelines, meeting up with customers’ expectations till wrapping up the job itself.

I deliver the job in my own way: a little of twist:

- I’m not good in technical knowledge, yet I know how to leverage my own strengths.
- I ASKED dumb question(S), loads of them as to get the job done!

I’ve started working at the young age, and I’m being trained by all levels, from the makcik cleaner till top notch superiors that molded my attitude towards life.

I’m pretty mature for my age, and I cannot tolerate should others are not meeting up with my minimum par line. That’s the reason, why I don’t listen.

IMPATIENT, you must say, that’s how visible my expectation(S) are.

Expectations needed to be visible and transparent between both parties.
Bosses are dumb people, but so does an employee should he/she do not seek what is required by their superiors.

Do NOT ASSUME, ASK, SEEK and PROVOKE should you need to.

Mei spreading the 'blurnesss' to my loyal readers :o)

A longggggggggg rant....

Loads of thing happened...just a glance,

1. Fake FAME

Yeah! At last, I appeared in my company's magazine: Front Cover. Phewh~I thought they wouldn't be publishing it. Got many calls from all over the states...many of them were like 'Ermm, are you the one...?; YES I am.

Read up the full version.

2. Engaged into a new game: Squash
My so called 'Geng-Geng Squash'

3. Spring cleaning

Yup, that's my cubicle. As CNY is just around the corner, how could I not clean up my workspace. 4. I've shifted to my new place. Had my last christmas with my ex-housemate


5. Went to TM Club Annual Dinner. It was great but not as awesome as last year. 6. My job getting tougher these days and I love it. Gee...and I'm ready for a change

6. Tadaaaa, meet Aini, a fabulous gal with SUCH A BIG Heart, but most of all being such a great friend.

Will update soon..

Hugs and kisses: Mei